Has anyone else had a major breakdown recently? My nearly 5 year old had a little choking incident tonight, which is one of my biggest fears with kids. I didn't think it was a big deal so dad took care of it... Just to find out that she was actually choking. How could I be so stupid!!

I had another choking incident with my neice about 11 years back when she was about 2. She choked on memory foam from a dog's bed right add my mom came home. If she hadn't come home right then, I have no idea if I would have even known what to do. I probably would have been without a neice after that.

Great, now I am crying again...

I woke up at 3am, sobbing in disbelief that God would entrust me with now TWO little kids! Who thought this was a good idea!! I completed a child CPR class when my last child was born and I am signing up to learn it almost again but I am still walking on eggshells. I can't sleep, can't cry to my husband... He has never seen me cry, in all of our 14 years together and I just don't know how to reassure myself. I am at a loss. I don't know what to do. I was so stable in my last pregnancy, more I feel like a train wreck.

Sorry so long winded... But I feel a bit better now.