Scared to be on top!!!

hey guys!!! so this is my first post here and i wanna kno if other women feel this way.. do u ever get really self conscious when ur riding bae?? i can't help but get this suuuuuper bad anxiety when he even mentions it bc I don't want him 2 think im gross :/ i rlly wanna be able to give him this but im just so... ashamed I guess