Why isn't it happening

I'm so so so fed up! I'm at that point I'm passed depressed I feel nothing I just want a child already. I can't remember the last time I felt happy I feel alone in all this I know there are other women but my life sucks at the moment because all I want is to love and care for my child. I can't put anything into words I can't stay in the dark any longer can someone please try and lift me up again