Could this be normal ?

Jenn • Have a 18 year old son and Ttc for # 2 been ttc for 5 years
So June of last year after ttc for two years I had a mc at 6 weeks. Have not had a postive yet. Here is my question after trying for so long hopeing for a positive test all that time .. I knew I was pregnant that time. I just knew .. will u feel that again? or will nerves take over and just make u think it's always neg. And mc may happend again and miss the feelings of a positive test . and just knowing you are preganant? I hope this makes scents.