Backsliding.... A lot.

Hi sisters. 
I have a question for you all. I have been backsliding for 2 months but what I feel like has been longer because I would go on and off. I would cuss, have lustful thoughts, masturbate, watch porn, etc. Befire when I did these things my spirit would condem me but now I feel like there's nothing wrong and this scares me.  Has God turned me loose to confide in my own sinful ways? I need to repent deeply. It was whenever times got hard I would go back to these things as a comforter when I should've went to my Heavenly Father and the bible. However, I never really picked up a bible. There are a lot of things I need to repent for. Will I be another chance? I'm feeling very depressed right now. Help please?