I wanna know ?

Is it wrong of me for not wanting to be on a birth control anymore ? About 8 months ago I stopped using depo. For 1 of many reasons, I didn't feel like me. Bring a female well just veins a human being period we're taught to love ourselves. So how can I love myself if I don't feel like myself ?  Being in swop not only did I not have a period bout I gained 20 pounds. 😖. My family tries to encourage me not to have sex but why should I stop having arc because I'm not on bc? I can continue as I always do and practice save sex.