This Monday I had my last visit with my High risk dr and he notified me that he wants me to have this baby by this week or next week. I'm sure he already let my regular obgyn know and I have my scheduled apt tomorrow at 9:50 am just for my regular check up. But I feel like she is going to send me to the ER right after. That's what happened with my first born. I am definitely ready to have this baby. But I am anxious and nervous about getting induced. 😰 it was horrible with my first the pain was seriously unbearable I ended up getting a relaxer bcus I didn't want to get the epidural but ended up getting it anyway. My son ended up flipping so by the time we got him back on the correct position the epidural had wore off so I felt absolutely everything! 😖 I had to get stitches and OMG idk what hurt more that or pushing an 8 pound baby from a small girl like me. 🤔 (ftm)  anyhow, I am kind of scared for me to go through the same thing I went through with my first born. I'm more aware of what to expect but I am still nervous as too it's been quite some years. I don't want to get the epidural but that could change when I'm in actual labor. I have done more walking then I did with my first so hopefully he comes out fast! I got sick after having my son and ended up having to get admitted to the hospital 4 days postpartum. I wasn't able to see my newborn for a whole week! It was very horrible! 😔 I thought this week would drag bcus usually when your waiting for something it takes forever but nope instead it felt like I woke up on Monday went to sleep and it was Thursday already! 🙀 I am dilated 2cm and 70% effaced since my last visit. I will find out how much more I have dilated if any tomorrow. I am not having any contractions either so idk. I hope being dilated and effaced that much helps me out more. I didn't dilate at all with my first. Ahhhhhh I'm freaking out! I will probably update tomorrow but we will see. I have bags in trunk and ready to go!