terrified to test

madeline • healing from losses 9/12/14 & 1/9/16
I had my second MC in January and today I am 2 days late in my cycle. i am so scared to take a test. I don't know which outcome is more scary to me. as much as my heart aches to be pregnant again, I'm so scared to be pregnant because it feels like I will never be able to carry a baby to term.