Struggling in my marriage. I love my husband dearly he loves us so well he works so hard for us and I'm so proud of him. The problem is me, due to things going on in my life lately I'm changing I want more from life and he doesn't understand why when I was so settled before and we both wanted the same things. I was happy going to work and providing for my family and doing the cleaning and going shopping on a weekend and days out at the beach when it was warm. I've always been a home bird and trying for another baby. Recently I'm reconsidering another baby as we have been trying for such a long time and if I get pregnant now I will have a 9 year age gap between my children. I'm just finding my independence and I will loose it again. I've never been one for holidays or travelling but lately I feel like the world has opened up I've never been on holiday without my mum I've never done anything challenging and exciting. I'm loosing my mum to cancer and it has helped me realise how special life is and how little time we have and I don't know whether it's something we can work through or if I'm being selfish. He doesn't understand how I feel and I don't know if it's just something emotional I am going through and will settle back to being the old me but I'm not sure I want to. It's like someone just cleared away the fog if that makes sense? Does anyone understand?