I am so done

I don't know what to feel anymore ladies... I feel like I fucked my body up going from an implant and taking the pill with it and then coming off of it and taking the pill and now to nothing. I feel like my body hates me and it's making me feel all these symptoms that I think might be pregnancy signs but they're not... I don't know how to feel anymore. I thought for sure I was gonna get my BFP today when I got home from work but I got nothing... Nothing..