I really cant believe this

I really never thought id be in a situation where im considering fertility treatment. Om so depressed that i cannot conceive on my own. Why is God punishing me. I prayed for myslef and a friend to get pregnant and she found out shez pregnant. Iv never been so depressed. Please i just want to let my feelings out. Dont tell me be patient or just relax it will happen. I was relaxed for 8months and still nothing. Feeling really defeated