I deleted glow...

So yesterday I was on Pinterest looking at baby shower games when all a sudden I got emotional and deleted the "when I get pregnant" board, uninstalled glow, then went for a very long run... I am 2 days away from af being due so I have light cramps, a twinge of an attitude, other af symptoms however, I have had an ache in my breasts for the past 4 days and when I woke up this morning I had huge ugly blue veins and my pink middle is now a dark purple as if my nipples were bruised I know they aren't because of the tenderness I haven't let dh near them. This is our 9th month TTC and I don't believe I am pregnant but I reinstalled glow because I wanted to share with everyone. Also one other strange thing that started when my nipples began being very tender was my anxiety completely disappeared. I've had a horrible anxiety and panic disorder since I was 17 and now I can go into wal mart and be in situations that I couldn't for the past several years? I mean maybe it's coincidence I'm not buying a test til af is a full 7 days late I don't want to be let down yet another month... Any thoughts would be nice I'm trying so hard to not get my hopes up..