Asexuality -- vent

Sometimes i hate being asexual.

Asexual simply means that i don't experience any asexual attraction to anyone. Just how straights are not attracted to gay, vice-versa and all in between.

It's not like sex disgusts me. I've tried it before, with both genders, but it just makes me uncomfortable to where i have to stop or go into an anxiety attack. No I've never been sexually abused and i do experience romantic attraction. Sex is, majority of the time, considered the"glue that holds a relationship together"... so i usually end up single because of this.

It's hard to find anyone who i can relate (and yes, I've tried AVEN). I just want to understand what's the big deal about sex. Why it's so prevalent? I just want to fit in.