Starting to feel stupid

Kellie
In August 2015, I had a tubal ligation reversal done.  We were so hopeful that we could defy the odds.  I have been pregnant 3X.  Every time it has ended.  Yesterday we discovered that this last one was in my ovary.  
  I am saddened and really placing a lot of blame on myself.  I got my tubes reversed only to have life die inside of me.  It seems like some kind of cruel joke.  Why did I think it would be possible that we would be able to have success?  If I would have known that I would meet the man of my dreams I never would have had them tied to begin with.  I'm such an idiot.  I ruined my chances at giving him a child.