So devastated...again

I truly thought this was the month. Been TTC for 22 months with no success. This month my breasts grew an entire size and are more sore than they ever have been. Sickness and fatigue and frequent restroom visits got my hopes up so high only to be crushed by an early AF. My SO and I can't even talk about trying anymore without fighting or me crying. I honestly can't go on getting my hopes up like this. I HATE THE DEPO!!  It's ruined me!