I help i have panic attacks and depression

Shirley
Plz help .also no rude comments .my drs have me on xzanx for it I've been on them for ten years they told me it was bad for my babies .which I know it is .so they are taken me off them slowly .its getting so bad that I can't hardly leave my house for one my car is very loud .noise makes it worse .to many ppl around me makes it bad to .I'm so afraid I can't get off these damn meds .it was confirmed on last Friday that I was pregnant with twins . what can I do to help this . the reason why I'm on these I seen my dad try to kill my mom . I was in the hospital for along time I got better but only because of these dn pills .we wasn't trying to get pregnant we use a condom and birth control .because my help wasn't good .the condom broke and i thought the birth control would help with not getting pregnant but I did and I don't know what to do with getting off this meds. And so everyone knows I'm not a junkie. Just fucked up in the head because of my dad.plz help