I'm tired 😔

Tired of the continously struggle that is my life.

Just yesterday my life was set back yet again.

For years I've battled addiction - addiction of drugs (party-drugs and recreational drugs) and drinking too much.

When I met my husband In 2014 I started kicking the drug addiction and hoped for a better life...

That year ended by us moving three times, and me getting to know about the truth about my relationship with my ex (he cheated throughout our 5 year relationship - with every girl imaginable - even my best friend with whom he had an ongoing affair apparently) meaning I started having major trust issues and lost 80% of my friends as I can't tolerate behaviour like that from anybody close to me - but atleast i fell pregnant ☺

2015 started of with me having a missed abortion at 11+2. We lived in a 2 bedroom apartment (45 kvm) - me, my husband and his daughter. I got seriously depressed by the abortion and started drinking a lot again - at least every other day I were drinking. I were having trouble maintaining my job.

By July we got married (the best day of that year) - 4 weeks later I found out I was pregnant again - only to find out two weeks later it was yet again a missed abortion.

This time around I fell hard! I stopped my job and just started drinking everyday for a period af time. Decided to quit by late October 2015 - I wanted to make my family proud of me.

Started 2016 with finally finding a bigger apartment. Where our family has its space and found out I was pregnant yet again.

Yesterday... After moving and living in the new apartment for 1 1/2 month we got told that we can't live here anymore. We have a month to figure something out or we'll have no roof over our head.

I'm pregnant and we have a 7 year old.

I seriously don't know what to do....

Every time we get back onto our feet the rug gets pulled from underneath...

I know a lot of people are struggling - and at least I have a family who loves me... but right now everything's just so damn hard!

I guess I just needed to vent about my situation 😔😔