I was sexual assaulted as a child and I thought I had gotten over it well enough to live a normal life until I thought about breastfeeding my child. It's something that I want to do because I know it's important to my child but it makes me feel slightly uncomfortable. I can't really explain why it just does. Seeing pictures of other women doing it and watching videos then imagining myself doing it makes me feel uncomfortable. I fully support public breastfeeding because I know that it's very natural and for god sake it's just a kid eating but when I think about myself doing it I have problems. I don't know if I will feel differently if I actually do it and I will probably just try it and see how I feel but I can't mentally get over this feeling that what I'm doing is perverse. I feel like I'm starting to go back into the mind set of just being a sexual object and not a real human and I can't get over the mentality. If I knew there were other people that struggled with this but over came it I would love to hear how.