My life right now is all screwed up... Cant blame no body but my self for that... I lost the love of my life... Were together for 18 years and he walked away whit my friend... Nd they have a whole family now... Its kills me at times because... I gave him no kids... All that time and no kids... Lots of mis carriages but no kids.... Nd i know i messed up slept with his little sister and her baby daddy which was his best friend...now im with them in a relationship living in one house sharing one room.... And it was getting tough cause we supposed to have no secrets but there are... I tell him every thing and sit back and watch all.... And she mad at me and his connection and i be mad about there's only cause she had his first born...and in my heart i wanna stay cause i love him nd his child like my own... But my emotions be say leave u can do better u deserve better... But i love that man with my soul... Am i a fool... Or jus flat out dumb asf... Be honest flow...