Just a little vent sesh

I've never felt like I might be pregnant in my 7 months of ttc. I still have 10 days before AF is due but I just can't shake the feeling like this is my month! I know it's too soon to tell and there cannot be symptoms yet. We only BD'D 3 times during my window but hopefully it was enough!

A cousin announced her fourth pregnancy today and I will be devestated if AF shows her hideous face.

Ughhhh. Why is this so hard for me! A baby would make my life so much more fulfilled... I feel purposeless without.