Feel like i keep failing!

39+1 went to doc appt today and I'm only 1 1/2 cent dialated. I'm a little disappointed. But its ok. She will come when she ready. But now I'm sad because my date stood me up. The father of my baby. We made plans and even talked about it earlier and then nothing. So now I'm in my feelings and feel like complete shit. Guess I'll cry myself to sleep tonight.