What's going on?!

Omfg !! So when I was at work, I wiped myself and there was pink blood like kinda full on the paper no blood clots or nothing. And now I don't have shit! I'm so sick of not having my period full! Idk what that was then I'm so over my body! I'm not even trying anymore to have a blessing rn. Cuz I figure to just let nature take its course and when God says I'm ready, then it'll happen. So is it a sign? I'm really confused 😔😔