I thought the worst day of my life was behind me.  The day when I saw my precious little baby I would never meet on my final ultrasound. My d and c was in September and since then I have had two chemical pregnancies.  Each time I have gotten a positive pregnancy test it has brought me such joy only to be followed by great sorrow.  I realize I am lucky to have a beautiful two year old son and that my first pregnancy was uneventful.  I hope that one day soon I will be able to carry a second baby to term.