School Problems

I know this isn't related, but I'm failing all my classes expect 1 or 2 and honestly, I'm very lazy. I do online school and they emailed my mom saying I might go on academic probation and if I mess up I can't go back and I'll have to repeat the 8th grade. The reason why I do online school is because I was getting bullied and tried to commit suicide. And at this moment I feel like a failure and if I go back to public school I feel like my life is over.... Idk what to do. Everything is collapsing . 😞😞