My last period was 2\4.

Had a positive test.

Made appointment with ob\gyn.

Had what I thought was implantion bleeding, very dark red\brown.

Went to doc on what was supposed to be 7 weeks

on Thursday, March 24.

Couldn't find the baby, (omg, thought I had a miscarriage!)

Had blood work done the same day and went again that Saturday for more blood work, HCG level went up since Thursday, so I wasn't as far along as I thought.

Went Monday, the 28th for another ultrasound, seen sac in uterus, (measuring about 5 weeks) but asked doc to check my left side due to some pain, (felt like ovulation pain, just lasted longer and during my first ultrasound, she said it looked like I had a cyst on my left side also)

Well she found another sac in my left tube!

Sent me to surgery that day to have it removed.

Wasn't sure if I was still pregnant in my uterus tho.

Got up Wednesday morning, April 6, ( this past Wednesday) and had started bleeding.

Went to my follow up early, got to see pictures from my surgery, doc said it was 5 weeks along in my tube, and had another ultrasound to confirm the sac in my uterus was a pseudo sac, caused by the hormones from my tubal!

So now my left tube is isn't functional.

Started have cramps yesterday and every time I'd get very emotional!

Felt like I had two babies ripped out of my heart even tho I know I was only pregnant with one, had my hopes up that I was still pregnant!

Today, it's been 11 days since my baby was cut out of me! I know it was the right and safe thing to do but it still hurts so much!

I have two kids, girl-6 and boy-5, and both pregnancy went prefect. They have helped me deal with this loss a great deal. Just curious what went wrong... I know it's not my fault and it happens to a lot of women! I'm just so scared that now my risk goes up and that it will happen again and have to have my right tube taken too, then there would be no chance at another baby!

I love my kids so much and it hurts so much that we lost a baby, a sister or brother for them!

Thank you for reading this and whatever comments you may leave! I hope anyone dealing with a loss of their own will have their happy ever after! (Didn't always have to be a fairy tale guy! Lol)

Dealing one day at a time! Best wishes to all!