Am I the only one..

Who has feared since They were younger that they couldn't have kids... Since I was 16 I knew I wanted to be a mother... Now I'm 20 turning 21.. Been trying for over a year and my fear is more evident now :( especially since I had a molar pregnancy in September..  I find it a bit funny that since the age of 16 I have tried every thing to NOT get pregnant. BC, condoms, pull out method.. Now that I CAN and really WANT a kid and have been trying for over a year I still have nothing... Anyone else in the same boat and have the same fear?...