Dislike breast feeding

Am I the only one who doesn't like breast feeding?  I'm mainly pumping since my man was born early and little and docs want to know how much he is eating. I try to add in breast feeding a couple times a day but I don't enjoy it. It hurts no matter which position I try or how he latches on. I hate not knowing how much he's getting or if he's getting enough. I love cuddling him when he's having his bottle and I love that my husband can bond with him when he's giving him a bottle too. I feel so guilty as a new mom that I don't enjoy breast feeding my little one and would rather pump. I resorted to giving him some formula tonight after breast feeding for 20 min. I couldn't take it anymore and the breast milk bottle I is for hubbys shift tonight but I didn't want him to starve as he was clearly still hungry. 😢