I cant sleep all I can do is cry. I'm so scared that dads not paying enough attention to what's going on with court. I've been having really bad dreams of mom doing bad things to me lately and I just can't take it. If dad just lets me go and I end up back with her I will be dead within 24 hours of being with her, I can't take being hit put down and mistreated by her. It literally kills me. And still does even though I'm not with her. The though of being back in her evil arms makes me cringe and suffer. There was no "I need my mom." Because she was never there. I'm so scared. I just don't know what to do. I can't go back.