Losing hope!!!

It's been a year this month, I'm giving up hope. There is nothing I want more in this life to be a mommy but every month is a disappointment, this app keeps saying my period is so many days away and it's wrong every month it's either a week early or a week late and everytime it'd a week late I get my hopes up tramendously. I'm tired of crying every month. Right now it says I'm 9 days away from AF but I'm cramping and my boobs hurt just like every month so ik this isn't my month either. Seems like all the drug addicts in my town can pop out 10 kids and even the ones who don't want them can pop them out left and right but the good people like me can't have her one wish. I'm losing faith and losing all hope. Maybe it's just not meant for me, I feel like I'm being punished over and over. I'm about to bow my head throw my hands up and shout I GIVE UP!