Miscarriage advice.

I had a miscarriage. It's honestly been a couple years but it still brings me to tears. Long story short, my mom committed suicide when I was ten. When I was pregnant, I started figuring out the baby's astrological and numerological information based on his or her due date and convinced myself the baby was my mom being reincarnated as my child. So you can imagine that when I had the miscarriage I was distraught.

That was over two years ago. I still flashback to the day I had the actual miscarriage and saw the bloody baby-shaped mass in the toilet and it tears me down. I still blame myself for it.

For those that went through it and are no longer breaking down a lot over it, how'd you push through the emotions?