My confession

My baby is 2 months old now. I wish I could go back in time and never get pregnant. I love her I guess but I'm just so miserable all the time now. I'm tired of having her scream in my face all day long while I try to take care of her. I'm tired of looking at what my body is now. I'm just tired. I spend extra time in the shower or lying in bed just crying because I hate what my life is now and I hate knowing it will always be this way now. I feel so trapped. I wasn't even supposed to be able to get pregnant and now I'm here. I wish I could be happy, I wish I could feel the things good moms feel. I don't know what's wrong with me. I must just be the most selfish piece of shit.