Birthday Depression

Nadia
April 18th, 2016 is the day of my 21st birthday. I will be at school, and have been called into work on top of it. My dad and his wife have completely forgotten about my birthday entirely and my dad will be in surgery all day several states away. My stepdad called me on the 17th wishing me a belated happy birthday because he thought it was the day before. Not only that but not even a card, just a loose suggestion at getting lunch at some point, which loosely translate to pretty much not happening. 
I got into a fight with my boyfriend that I live with and now I'm "sleeping" on the couch, except my neighbors were stomping above me like crazy for hours and now I can't sleep at all. 
I'm so done with it all. It's pointless. I'm seriously considering walking out into traffic and being done. No more. 
The birthday is pretty much the last straw. I have plenty more things to be depressed about. 
Like my mom dying of cancer and my dad being on the way. Or the fact that I can't support myself without my boyfriend's help and the fact that I have been homeless and he is the only reason I'm not right now. It's all so fucked, I'm walking a tight rope. 
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Ca

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Well.. You have family, you have a job, you have a roof over your head, you're living to see another birthday.I remember not having family to rely on, no stable income, and uncertain living conditions. Now that I do, it's so much easier to appreciate the little things and the people in your life.You have more to be grateful for than you think you do!

Je

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I hope your day gets better!!!🎉But go spoil yourself. Buy yourself a coffee on the way to work, wear a happy birthday sash at work so people are extra nice to you haha but for real, treat yourself!

Ca

Caitlin • Apr 18, 2016
This! You shouldnt rely on other people for your own happiness!

Ca

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Once you get older, birthdays become just another day. It's a harsh reality. My birthday is tomorrow, I'll be 24, I was not anticipating it, I honestly forgot. It's just a part of growing up. People should have at least acknowledged your birthday better, especially your boyfriend, but I mean really it's not worth walking into traffic over.

Je

Jessizu • Apr 18, 2016
this is true... my 27th birthday i spent alone since my husband was working in france and the rest of my family couldnt be bothered... lol big deal.. i went and spoiled myself.. weve gotten out of the "danger an aligator can eat our entire body" childhood stage when ages ago that was a big deal... now we are adults its meh... time to find.other things to be happy about

La

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If you are seriously feeling depressed you need to get some help. Even if it's just a therapist to talk things out with, that can make a HUGE difference. Try to have a *calm* conversation with your SO and explain to him exactly how you are feeling and apologize for getting into a fight with him previously. Let him know that you're feeling ignored by your family and that you really need him right now. While it may seem like things couldn't be any worse, focus on what you DO have and (if you can!) try to find the courage to realize that you are the only person who can ultimately make you feel better. But again, if you are seriously considering suicide, call a hotline and they will get you some real help. 

Le

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We have the same birthday but I'm just trying to ignore it, it is in no way special anymore. I'm turning 20, I requested the day off of work and didn't get it. So now I'm stuck going to work and to top it off my boyfriend is with his attitude already. The day hasn't even started and it's ruined already. At least your not the only one, happy birthday 💕

Sa

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Happy birthday ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Pr

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Every year I have what I call "birthday depression" & I'm not sure why I feel so down on my birthday but the best cure is to try to enjoy yourself. Pamper yourself a little bit, it doesn't have to be expensive :) buy a coffee or tea and take it to work or school, or tonight when you get home make something yummy and curl up nice and comfy. Watch tv or read a book or whatever makes you feel cozy and safe, maybe that's going out with friends. And remember you've made it 21 years through this constant battle so you can't let it get you down now. You're on the brink of winning the whole war :) 

Ap

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I get it. My birthday was the 15th. The anniversary of my brother's death from cancer is the 18th. My remaining family doesn't want to celebrate. My dad, who by the way is ALSO dying of cancer and was severely brain damaged by his treatment, was sobbing hysterically when my sister was trying to put a candle in a cupcake and sing. My mom wasn't there, she was at one of her six different therapy appointments of the week. It wasn't fun. But I put one foot in front of the other because I have no choice.

N�

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My birthdays are always shit. My whole family doesn't care and when we rarely do things for my birthday everybody makes it about them and what they want. Completely get how you feel 

Na

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I appreciate the people who are actually empathizing and not doing the it could be worse thing.This is just the worst birthday of my life and it's the only one I thought would break the chain of horrible birthdays for past 5-10 years. I mean, to turn 21 like this, it's incredibly disheartening. To top of it off my dad could end up dying on my birthday miles and miles away. But thank you everyone.