NO MORE 😓

I am really becoming tired of TTC and keeping up with opk and fertile windows etc etc... AF came early today and I feel like such a loser! I have four children from a previous relationship that was very abusive that I wasn't preventing or trying with (love my little fellas to the moon and back) and now that it seems that I've gotten married to a wonderful man and since I've been TTC it's taking forever, I fear I may not be able to give him a child. I know that 4 months isn't long but I really want a baby, this may seem horrible and I apologize in advance to you ladies who have been trying for so long. Maybe I am a bit emotional but I've been to the doctor and everything and was told my body is regulating from the depo, my periods are pretty much back to normal and no baby yet.