Just a little girl.
I lost my virginity at age 15, less than a month before I turned 16... I then found out I was pregnant, I lost my baby at around 6 1/2 weeks, and I didn't tell anyone. 4 days after I turned 17 I went to the ER with severe pelvic cramping thinking I had cysts on my ovary. I went in thinking nothing of it.... Then before they sent me home read on the blood tests I was 10 weeks pregnant with my second baby.. We did ultra sounds as my parents looked devastated, I couldn't stop crying I was scared. They took me to ultra sound and I didn't dare look at the screen I was disappointed in myself... Now to this day I wish I would've. That day the did 2 types of ultra sounds and they couldn't find anything. I didn't know what was going on. They sent me back to my ER room, next thing I know doctors are putting in IV's scrambling everywhere, when They talked it was blurred I had no idea what was happening as they left the room to get a wheel chair, I looked at my mom and she said do u know what's going to happen? I said no... And she said you have an Eptopic or a cyst they can't tell but either way you're losing the baby. That moment I couldn't stop repeating " I'm killing my baby". I ran into the bathroom laid in the corner and bawled. I didn't want them to take my baby. I didn't care, it wasn't fair. Next thing I know... I'm going back to surgery. I couldn't help but feel like I'd rather die then my baby... Turns out it was an eptopic, they removed my left felopian tube, and my heart is forever damaged. Days later I found pictures from my surgery they had given my mom and my heart broke into a thousand little pieces. I still wonder to this day if since I was under age if they have actual pictures of my baby or knew the sex. Because I didn't even know I was pregnant. In a 15 min period, I found out I was pregnant, then I wasn't anymore.. I lost a lot of blood and could've died if I wouldn't have went to the ER. I still wonder what things would've been like.. If they were here. 😭😭💔💔👼🏼👼🏼
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