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I'm 6 weeks postpartum with my second baby. My husband had gotten laid off from his job the first week we were home with our newborn. No unemployment given. We live from paycheck to paycheck. My husband started doing small jobs that he got paid for but not enough to pay our bills, also my husband is not very responsible when it comes to money. So I had to beg my doctor to relieve me to go back to work after a month of being home with my newborn 😕. So here I am two weeks into being back to work. My husband still is working, and makes every excuse why not to work. I work first shift so I'm up before the birds. My husband will not get up with the baby through out the night, it's always been me, he won't clean while I'm at work, I do that when I get home from work. So after working Monday-Friday, taking care of the kids, and all the chores he wants to go away for the weekend fishing. I'm upset because I'm exhausted and I'd like a break. He still goes. He was suppose to have an orientation to start a job and he blew it off to go also. So going fishing (which he has all summer to fish) is more important than getting a job to help me support our boys. It's okay for me to sacrifice my time with my newborn to go back to work to support my family but he can't take off a day of fishing. He tell me me that I'm not gonna make him feel bad for this... It amazes me how I can't go anywhere or do anything because we have no money, but he goes everywhere and does whatever he wants. I've been spending most of my nights on the couch lately. He doesn't seem to care. I get no thank you, I'm not appreciated, nothing. I just don't know what to do. I don't usually vent to anyone but at this point I have no one.