I'm a sophomore and I used to smoke weed alot with my bf ...and one time I got caught by the police ...I guess I had some one and I didn't know it becuz I was high to school ..so they filled out a record and put me in a police car in handcuffs ....I was crying alot ...so much the next day my cheeks were red. Anyways my mom came to the station and picked me up with my sis she's 12 and they were already their before I got their ...and they saw me walk out with handcuffs...and I looked at my mom and she was crying so much ...It made me HURT SO MUCH they just looked at me with disappointment. .. .andndndfter that I got my fingerprints printed and a photo taken like ones u see in the movie ....I couldn't stop crying ...that day was the worst day ever becuz I got expelled to and sent to an alternative school ...and a mom that hates me... that month was the worst month ever ... I didn't even talked to my mom or looked at her that whole month becuz Ik she was dissapointed in me. After I got out of alternative school ...I went back to my old school and I felt diff after it, becuz people treated me diff. I met a teacher at the alternative school that was an inspirational motivation teacher ...he made me feel better even know that school treated us like we were in prison.

After a week of being back in my school me and my bf park at a park somewhere and get in the mood ...and all of a sudden ...we here some car pull in and their comes a cop out with a flashlight looking through the windows ..and I had to call my mom and hand the phone to him ....I was crying and shaking and loosing it becuz this is the second time i got caught doing something. He calls my mom and tells her that I was doing stuff with my bf and let's me leave with my bf in his car ..and before he let's us go he tells my bf ...u be careful with her... when I came home after that I was crying and freaking out .... becuz I didn't want my mom to be dissapointed in me again and I had that fear again ....I walked in side and she pulled my bf to the side and started talking to him I went up to my room and began crying my bf comes up and says my mom is not mad and ask me why I'm still crying and I told him I feel like a disappointment and that she's gonna hate me .... NO MOM SHOULD EVER HAVE TO HAVE THAT FEAR. she came up and started talking to me and telling me she wasn't mad and ...I couldn't even look at her becuz I didn't want her to see me ..she doesn't deserve me ... I told my mom how I felt and she started crying and said I wasnt a disappointment becuz I've been through so much she tells me 'tay u are not a disappointment... ik that I could never go through the stuff u went through and stay at that school every day like u did ..u never gave up u are strong brave sweet girl ..' don't ever think that ur a disappointment.

That night was a changing night for me anyways....

My mom picked me up fr9m school tiday for a dentist appointment and as im walking to her my mom and sis are starring at me with dissappintment.... they didnt even talk to me they just looked at me amd we walked out ...and i feel like crying. I guess...what I'm trying to say ...am I a disappointment to my mom how can I get this feeling that whenever I'm around my mom I don't feel like a disappointment to her ???