I feel like I'm a horrible person

My sister in law is in the hospital in critical condition and was giving 24hrs to live and all I can do is think about my baby and worry about my baby I'm 9w4ds and have had two miscarriages before and will be going in to my next ultrasound the 28th and I'll turn 22 the 22nd of this month and I should be just praying for her but all I can do is pray for my baby more I have been praying for her and my baby but I pray for my baby more I'm sorry you had to read this post but I needed to get it out