First time after miscarriage...

Monica
I miscarriage 4/12 at 6 weeks and it was my first pregnancy after trying for nearly a year and a half. It hit me hard emotionally and the sadness comes in waves still. I miss being close with my husband intimately but I'm afraid to take that first step in TTC again. I'm no longer bleeding and my levels are where they should be. I'm no longer pregnant per blood test which makes me sad to accept as well. Now that the harder parts are over I want the normal parts of life back and that includes being intimate again since I do miss it. But the more I think about that "first time", it scares me. Will it hurt? Will I bleed? Will I get emotional? Any advice would help ladies ☹️