I'm having a really hard time dealing with two back to back miscarriages... I feel completely alone. I want to reach out to one of my friends or someone but as I scroll through my contacts to text/call someone, I just think, "They might be busy... I don't wanna bother them again... They probably don't wanna hear about my problems..." I went to counseling today, didn't really help... I just feel like a burden to everyone. I love somewhere where I don't have family around, I'm just here alone... I just don't understand why I couldn't hold on to these pregnancies. And I'm tired of people telling me I should be happy I have my son. I AM happy to have my son, but that doesn't take away from the loss. I so desperately wanted him to be a big brother... And now he has this shirt and two books I bought him about being a big brother... I just feel like I want to just curl up in a ball and just lay there forever. I know this post is super negative, but I honestly feel like this is the only place I have to say how I really feel... I just don't want to be alone. 😔