I thought it would be easy to get pregnant. All through my younger years I would worry about taking bc everyday and wearing extra protection during sex, stressing I might fall pregnant when I forgot a pill, little did I know it's so much harder than I thought. I try to act like I don't want it or like its not a big deal to try to trick my mind into falling pregnant but my subconscious knows how I really feel. I feel like I want it so much that I'm jinxing it into not happening 😔😔😔 I even deleted this app so I would stop thinking about it and just enjoy life how it is now but I couldn't last. I'm 24 and know I should be wanting other things like to travel the world or be out partying at clubs until 10 in the morning but that life just isn't for me anymore. I just yearn to be a mummy and have my own little bundle of joy to feel grow inside me and wake up to in the mornings.