I think I'm going to have to stop breastfeeding and I'm pretty upset about it. My son is 9 weeks. He's had what we thought was a milk protein allergy and the doctor suggested us taking a week off by giving him formula and me pumping since I had been dairy/soy free for 4 weeks and he still wasn't better. We just finished the week of that and started back breastfeeding today and he's been so fussy all night. I also have a 5 year old and I really lost my temper with her tonight because I was so stressed about his crying and the potential that my milk just makes him sick. I just feel like I can't be a good mom to her because I'm so completely consumed by him/this issue... Which then makes me feel like I'm being a bad parent to him bc I'm not able to find a way to breastfeed him without making him feel sick. My husband is out of town a lot and that makes it extra hard to do all this on my own. The thought of stopping just honestly makes me really sad. I don't really know why. I'm just pretty upset tonight and I thought maybe someone out there might have some words of wisdom or comfort... I'm so blessed and thankful to have two beautiful children and I'm just trying to stay grounded and make the best decisions.