Unfortunately I got some news that no pregnant person wants to hear. Ive been bleeding since sunday of last week (no pain) but it went from brown, to pink, to bright red. Last saturday i went into the dr fue to some odd spotting, was told everything looked great, but that i was overdue for a pap. So he went and did the pap, the next day my brown spotting started. I didnt want to think to much of it, but monday the blood (which has been like a light period) started to come out with small clots like 1/4 size of a penny. So i already had a mc on christmas, i freaked out and went to the er. They ran blood tests and did a transvaginal ultrasound. Told me everything was correlating, that i was early 5 weeks but to follow up with dr. The bleeding couldve been from the pap. So i go to my dr, and they want to monitor my hcg. So for the past week every two days i went in for hcg.

1st hcg er-1254

2nd hcg- 1675

3rd hcg-2400

Still bleeding, i went to the dr yesterday. He said my numbers are not doubling and that i had quite a bleed that unfortunately looks like its another mc. It should come out on its own.

At this point im heart broken.

Then hes like id like to monitor your hcg levels this week, and i need you to go to your scheduled ultrasound next week.

I felt horrible just broke down and bawled my eyes out. I know theres nothing i can do to stop this, but i asked him what are the chances this could turn around for me? He says "im 99.9% sure this is a miscarriage just prepare yourself mentally and emotionally"

I dont wanna give up on my bean. I know i shouldnt do this to myself either, have hope and be more heartbroken, but its like i dont want to give up until i dont hear the heartbeat next week. My bleeding seemed to slow down since my visit yesterday morning. *sigh* i just wanted a healthy pregnancy, instead i feel broken and like my body cant do anything right :'(