How do I survive 1st trimester after miscarriage!? My anxiety is through the fucking roof ...

Britny
I had a miscarriage 4/24/2015. I found out I was pregnant 4/20/2016! Lol 
My last pregnancy I started bleeding and cramping around 8 weeks and when I got an ultrasound in the ER they said the pregnancy hadn't developed past 5 weeks and I lost it that day.
Now that I'm 5 weeks 3 days with this pregnancy I am freaking out .... I can't stop the feeling that at any moment I could be having all these feelings for a baby that isn't there anymore ... I don't have a doctor appointment until 9 weeks, where they usually can't even find a heart beat on Doppler, and then who knows when I'll get an ultrasound ... how am I supposed to make it through this next month?