I know, but I can't
Hi girls....so I guess I'm needing some opinions...real opinions. Unbiased ones and hopefully ones that don't judge me but are helpful.
3 years ago I moved away from my ex husband and into another relationship. I knew the new guy from high school. We both crushed on each other, but we were always dating each other's friends so we never dated. We hooked up right after high school when he came home from boot camp...he was on his way to Iraq and I didn't hear from him again until years later when I was in the middle of leaving my ex husband.
Anyway, now it's turned into something completely different than I thought it would be. I've become isolated from old friends, he drinks a lot and gets angry and mean when he drinks, I've caught him several times texting other girls including three exes, I've even caught him trying to invite girls over while I'm out of town. Then there's the fact that he apologizes and every time I fall for it somehow.
We are best friends and basically the mirror image of each other when it comes to likes and hobbies. And when things are good, they're really good. He has severe ptsd and I know I calm him down and help him through his stuff.
This last Christmas he proposed and I said yes. We were in such a good place and I've seen him change over the last year in a big way. The drinking has become less and as far as I know he hasn't cheated. Yeah, it's he as far as I know part that scares me. I've been off of birth control for a while but it scares me.
I've always been loyal and honest with him. When things are good, I feel like he's being honest and loyal too. But as soon as I feel it in my gut that somethings up, it always is.
I feel like I should leave. But I seriously love this asshole. My heart is so far in, I don't know how to climb out. I'm also financially stuck for now and am in an area with new people so no couches to sleep on.
What would you do in my situation?!
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