Two days ago I got caught with my boyfriend in my room. Naked. I had snuck him in so we could cuddle and do well the usual. When my mom found out he was in my room she kicked him out and I ended up chasing him for over an hour trying to get him to calm down. He forced me to leave him alone and go home. Once I got home he called me and was completely crying his eyes out. So once my family went to bed I snuck out again and spent the whole night with him walking around my home town. (He's not the issue me and him are doing well now). But yesterday my mom, sister and brother in law started yelling at me and constantly pushing me to my limit. They were purposely trying to make me feel like a fuck up. They are aware that I've been crying all day yesterday and today, and have had panic attacks at school. They chose to ignore the issue and today they've continued pushing me even when I calmed down. Now only an hour ago my mom said she was puting me on birth control. She didn't give me a choice. I feel hated and not welcomed here. I'm a very unstable person when it comes to anxiety and depression. I've been considering suicide. I have no where to run to. I need help. Please..anything 😭💔