Mother's Day/ hope

Ok, so ladies I know a lot of us have been through some of the same issues. I got pregnant before when I was 21 (didn't work out). 2yrs later I recently got pregnant and had a miscarriage in January. My boyfriend and I are taking the next necessary steps in our lives but I don't want to be married (crazy right ?). We have both decided to try to bring a new baby into this world and the waiting game is killing me. I hope that I receive a special gift this weekend (BFP).