First time mom

I finally got to go home with my little man last night . It was one of the hardest nights of my life . It's different from being in the hospital where the nurses come in every 2 hours to help you and check on you to being home alone with just you and the baby . My body is killing me from labor . 
All I can say is that I'm inlove with him and everything it took to get him here ❤️. I can't stop staring at his cute self lol . 
When he cries , I cry 😭😩
I can't wait to get used to him and his patterns because I've never watched or been around babies this little before . It's different and I love it . 
My dad passed away last year in August which was the same time I got pregnant . So he's just so special to me in every way . My dad would be proud and happy ❤️