I have had bouts of depression my whole life but I never wanted to really admit it. When I met my husband it is like everything changed. We have been together nine years and I was so happy. We have a beautiful toddler and a baby on the way. Life was perfect..... was.

My husband's family is falling apart because of an affair his father had and several factors came into play when my husband totalled my car and almost lost his life. He basically thought his mother's life was in trouble and drove too fast to try and come to her rescue. He had to be air lifted and had two surgeries. It was the scariest moment of my life. I thought I lost him forever... now seven months later I think I did lose him that night. He lost his job and is just now getting to where he can walk on his own for short bouts of time. I know he is depressed. I know the signs because I have been there too.

He drinks so much more now and is not always a happy drunk. He tried to harm me last night. He has never ever done anything like this in the 9 years we have been together. He needs help and I don't know how to help him. I feel like I am not good enough to take away his pain and I am not enough for him to be happy. I feel so alone. I don't want to tell my family what he has done. I'm ashamed and I feel myself slipping away. I have been losing weight and I am six months pregnant. This is when I should be tacking on the weight.... I can't even post this with my name on it how could I ever make it through this? Please help me.