Bad temper/mood swings

So Friday I had the patch, I had to take it off last night because I couldn't deal with the hate in my body, I knew it was from the patch and I was so nasty to my boyfriend, any little thing he did I screamed at him for, I caught him looking at me while I was deep into the tv and I went mad at him. I looked psycho. Now I'm feeling so bad and guilty for it I know I don't deserve him. I told him I might get abit angry or upset because of all the hormones going on (I was due on too but I put the patch on anyway) but I didn't feel any guilt I couldn't bring myself to touch him or anything it was horrible I had no emotions or feeling and that scares me.  He's always there for me he handled it well and I can't believe I was a horrible bitter arsehole to him. I can't apologise enough to him and he feels bad that I feel bad and he's sent money to my account so I can go shopping. But I don't feel like i deserve it. And I love him more than anything in this world. I don't know how they could have made me so bitter I hate myself for it