I'm 12 +2

I've been so stressed out , angry and upset lately about everything about my past ... I'm just going to put it all in God hands about it all... So he can take it all away ... All over the pain I've been through rape, abuse , and not having my father I'm 23 and all i had was my mother, grandma and older sister we may fuss and disagree but they always been here no matter what... I have 1 -3 year old and one on the way in November which i know he or she will be taken care of even though me and her daddy isn't together anymore he calls now my 3 year old father I'm so tired of doing it myself i shouldn't have to keep repeating myself he should be in her life more than one a month or every other few months I'm just tired y'all